[bra_dropcaps style=”dropcap2″]W[/bra_dropcaps]e pray together every night baby.
I always end with, â€œGod, thank you for letting me be Chloeâ€™s daddy. Amen.â€
With every beat of my heart, I mean it. Youâ€™re a gift.
But tonight, you broke down your big olâ€™ daddy to a puddle of emotion.
As we opened our eyes you looked at me.
I drown in those baby blues every single time you bat your lashes.
Youâ€™ve got me whooped.
Youâ€™re mommy and sissy have the same eyes.
I donâ€™t stand a chance.
As you gazed into my face, you looked intently as you whispered-
â€œIâ€™m glad I get to be your Chloe. Youâ€™re the best daddy God made for me.â€
I just wrestled to not cry when you said the words.
I know when I cry you get worried that Iâ€™m hurt.
I tucked you in and laid you down to bed.
As I finally laid down to rest and waited for mommy to fall asleep, I lost it.
Because even though you believe Iâ€™m the best daddyâ€¦
Iâ€™m gonna make mistakes.
Wait, Iâ€™ve made mistakes already, ugh.
I ignore you while I play with my phone.
When you want to color, I blow you off because the news is on.
As Iâ€™m going over my sermon, you always want to sit on my lap.
I focus on church stuff, when I instead should wrestle & have a dance party.
I donâ€™t want to miss another dance party with you.
I want to be an example for you.
I want to show you how to be loved.
I want to show you how much Jesus loves you.
I pray you see it through all my flaws and screw ups.
So, when those boys start trying to see more than your baby bluesâ€¦
Tell â€˜em to slow their roll.
Because you know a thing or twoÂ aboutÂ what real love looks like.
And even though I make mistakes.
I love you little pookie.
And one day youâ€™re gonna hear all the silly stories about you in sermons.
The embarrassingÂ photos on Facebook & Twitter.
And youâ€™re gonna read these posts Iâ€™ve written to you.
And the letters Iâ€™ve been saving for you each year on your birthday.
When you get old enough to read all this- I pray you know,
That while you feel like youâ€™re the one getting the good end of the deal-
Iâ€™m the one who feels truly blessed to be a part of your life.