Why The Blog Change?: Part 1

It really had less to do with WordPress or Blogger and much more to do with motives.

Crappy ones.

I’m not gonna say that everyone who has a http://www.thisismynamecheckmeout.com link to their blog, website, etc. is a cynical jerk who is all about themselves. I can say with certainty that I was one of those people. I originally bought http://www.jasonbedell.com back a few years ago to blog from. It was good and getting a decent amount of traffic and hits and I felt great about it. It was selfish, pride centered propaganda self-promotion at it’s finest. I then sold it to another Jason Bedell (which sent us to new york for a week, Thanks Jason) and purchased http://www.jasonbedellonline.com and continued from there.

I would go around commenting on all the ‘happening” blogs out there to try and get traffic back to ME and MY SITE. Shamelessly. Without apology. I wasn’t there to add to the conversation, I was there for a sales pitch and to gain some followers. I had nothing to say and nowhere to take people once they visited my blog/site except to try and convince them about how boring and insignificant all the things I said and did truly were cool and hip a young pastor truly is.

I do think there is a fishbowl complex going around and I had it. I sat in my little digital bubble of MySpace, YouTube, Facebook, Blogger, Twitter, Vimeo, Qik, Linked In, StumbleUpon, etc. hoping that my little online existence would somehow get me big, famous, and known. But, all the while I sat in my little fishbowl looking at other people’s bowls.

They’re bigger, better, more fish around them, higher quality… and somehow in my mind I equated that those things defined who I was. So I began reaching for more, trying harder, commenting more, creating more- in the hopes of being the next big thing. And then it hit me.

My story isn’t my story at all… it’s God’s story. I am just lucky enough to be a part of it. My worth is not in technology that didn’t even exist just a few years ago, my worth is in He who created me. And I began asking God to take away the fishbowl complex in my life. We’ll talk more about why the blog change in the next post, but…

How are you doing with the fishbowl complex?
Pastors & Ministers? Are you living in that complex when you look across town?
Christians? Are you struggling with that complex at work or when you check out your neighbor?

I know it spills over into more areas of my life than I can count.

Jason *over and out*